50 дней после моего самоубийства.
Шрифт:
`I^u c`ao"e`e ^a "a^i`i. ^A'i'o`od`e ^i'i a`ua "e'o:oa. ss 'a^u~n`od^i "i^i'aaae`a"e`a 'i`a ^a`o^id^i'e 'y`o`aae.`O`a`i "i"y`o"u ^e^i`i'i`a`o, `od`e ~n"i`a"e"u'i`e, ^a`a'i'i`a `e ~a`ad"aad^i'a. ss ^a^u'ad`a"e`a ^e^i`i'i`a`o'o ~n 'a^i"e"uo`e`i ^i^e'i^i`i, ^i'i^i 'a^u"e^i ^i`o "i^i"e`a "a^i "i^i`o^i"e^e`a. "I^i^a`o^idth~n"u, 'i^i `i'ia c"aa~n"u 'id`a^a`e`o~n"y!
ss c`a^a`a"e`e"e`a~n"u 'i`a ^ed^i^a`a`o"u. 'A^iaea, ^e`a^e ~o^i:a`o~n"y ~n"i`a`o"u. 'I^i 'i`a"a^i c"aa"e`a`o"u c`a"i`e~n"u ^a "a'ia^a'i`e^ea.
"A^id^i~a^i'e "a'ia^a'i`e^e!
'Y`o^i "iad^a^u'e "aa'i"u `i^ia'e 'i^i^a^i'e ae`ec'i`e.`O^u 'ia "ida"a~n`o^i^a"e"yao"u ^e`a^e "y ~n^i~n^e'o:`e"e`a~n"u "i^i "i`ad'i"y`i, `e 'Aa^e^e~n... `I'ia "i"e^i~o^i 'aac 'ia,. 'Y`o^i "y ^a`e'i^i^a`a`o`a!ss "a^i"eae'i`a 'a^u"e`a `o^i~a"a`a "i^i~a`e'a'i'o`o"u! ^I'i`a 'a^u"e`a `o`a^e`a"y `i`a"ea'i"u^e`a"y `o`a^e`a"y...`E`e~n'o~n, c`a :`o^i? 'I^i `i'ia a~n`o"u "a"e"y ^e^i~a^i ae`e`o"u.ss 'a'o"a'o ~n`e"e"u'i^i'e d`a"a`e 'i`e~o...D`a"a`e 'Aa^e^e~n!
"Aa'i"u1. ~A"e^id`e"y `I`a^e^o`e'i.
"Aa'i"u 2
ss "id^i~n^u"i`ath~n"u ^i`o ~n^aa`o`a, ^e^i`o^id^u'e 'a"u,`o "id"y`i^i ^a ~a"e`ac`a. "A`a, a~n`o"u ^a~na-`o`a^e`e `i`e'i'o~n ^a 'a^i"e"uo`e~o ^i^e'i`a~o.~N ^e'o~o'i`e "a^i'i^i~n`e`o~n"y "id`e"y`o'i^u'e c`a"i`a~o a"a^u. `I`i`i, ~n"eth'i^e`e `oa^e'o`o.
ss 'a^u~n`od^i 'a'o~a'o ^a "a'oo, `e ~n`i^i`odth~n"u ^a cad^e`a"e^i.'A^iaea! 'I`a ^e^i~a^i "y "i^i~o^iae`a?"A`a, ^a`e"a^i^e 'o `ia'i"y ~o'oaea `i^i'i~n`od^i^a ^a ""I`ad`a'i^id`i`a"e"u'i^u~o "y^a"ea'i`e"y~o".ss 'a^u~n`od^i "id`e'ia`i`ath ~o^i"e^i"a'i^u'e "a'oo.^I`o 'ia~a^i `i'od`ao^e`e "i^i ^e^iaea. 'I'o ^a^i`o, ~o^i`o"u `oa"iad"u ~n`o`a"e`a 'i`a :a"e^i^aa^e`a "i^i~o^iae`a.^I"aa^a`ath o^id`o^u `e ^o'o`o'a^i"e^e'o ~N`o`e^a`a.^I'i`a "a^i ~n`e~o "i^id "i`a~o'ia`o a~a^i ^i"aa^e^i"e^i'i^i`i.
^E^i~a"a`a "y ~n"i'o~n`o`e"e`a~n"u ^a'i`ec, `o^i 'o^a`e"aa"e`a ~a^i`o^i^a^u'e c`a^a`od`a^e.'A"e`e'i:`e^e`e ~n ^e"e'o'a"e`e:'i^u`i "aaea`i^i`i.`O^iaea ~n`a`i^ia ~a^i`o^i^a`e"e`a `i'ia 'Aa^e^e~n...
– "A^i'ad^ia 'o`od^i!-"iada'a`e^a`aa`o `i^i`e `i^u~n"e`e ~N`a'e`i^i'i.
– "A^i'ad^ia.
– 'I'o :`o^i "id`e"a'o`i`a"e`a ~na'aa `e`i"y, `i'ia ~na~a^i"a'i"y c`a'a`ed`a`o"u `o^a^i`e 'i^i^a^ua "a^i^e'o`ia'i`o^u.
xad`o! ss c`a'a^u"e`a "id`e"a'o`i`a`o"u `e`i"y. `O`a^e ~A"e^id`e"y ~n^i'aad`e~n"u! "Aaea'e'i,`I^i"e"e`e,^E'y`o,~N`ad`a.^A~n, 'ia `o^i!'A"e`e'i a`ua ^o`a`i`e"e`e"y!
– `A ^e`a^e`a"y ^o`a`i`e"e`e"y 'o ~N`o`e^a`a?
– "E`a'ead.
– 'Y`I`E"E`E "E`A'EAD- ^ed`e^e'i'o"e`a "y - "a`a, 'Y`i`e"e`e "E`a'ead.
– "A`a 'oae, ~N`o`e^a'o 'y`o^i "i^i'id`a^a`e`o~n"y.- 'o~a^i"e^e`e a~a^i d`o`a "id`e"i^i"a'i"y"e`e~n"u ^a 'o"e^u'a^ea.
– "E`a"a'i^i, "y ~o^i:'o a~n`o"u.
– "A`a `e"a`e "i^ic`a^a`od`a^e`a'e, ^a:ad`a 'a^u"e `od'o"a'i^u'e "aa'i"u.
ss ~na"e`a c`a ~n`o^i"e `e 'i`a:`a"e`a 'o"i"ea`o`a`o"u ~n^a^ith a"a'o. 'Y`o^i 'a^u"e^i "a^i^a^i"e"u'i^i `o`a^e`e ^a^e'o~n'i^i.
– `O`a^e, 'o `ia'i"y "a"e"y `oa'a"y 'i^i^a^i~n`o`e, ^i"a'i`a ~o^id^io`a"y "ad'o~a`a"y "i"e^i~o`a"y.-~N^e`ac`a"e ^i'i ~a"e"y"a"y `i'ia ^a ~a"e`ac`a.
– 'I'o "a`a^a`a'e 'i`a:'i,`i ~n "i"e^i~o^i'e.- ~N^e`ac`a"e`a "y. ~O^i`o"u 'a^u 'y`o^i 'ia 'a^u"e^i ~n^a"yc`a'i^i ~n "i`ad"u'i"y`i`e, ~o^i`o"u 'a^u, ~o^i`o"u 'a^u...
– C`a^a`od`a `o^u `e"a,o"u ^a o^e^i"e'o...
– ~Nad"u,c'i^i? `O^u `ec-c`a 'y`o^i~a^i c`a~n`o`a^a`e"e `ia'i"y ^a^i"e'i^i^a`a`o"u~n"y?- ^i'i c`a~n`ia"y"e~n"y.'I^i `ia'i"y ^i'a"ea~a:`e"e^i :`o^i 'i`e:a~a^i ~n "i`ad"u'i"y`i`e 'ia ~n"e'o:`e"e^i~n"u.- "E`a"a'i^i, "a`a^a`a'e "a`a"e"uoa 'i^i^a^i~n`o`e.
– `O`a^e, "i`ad'i`e "id`ea"a'o`o :adac "a^a`a `e"e`e `od`e "a'i"y- ^i^o`e~aa`o"u, ~n^e^id^i "y 'o^a`eae'o ~n^a^ia~a^i ~N`o`e^a`a!- ^I'i`e 'oaea ~n'aaae`a"e`e `ec `othd"u`i^u, 'i^i `e`i 'i`a"a^i ^i`o~n`e"aa`o"u~n"y "i^i^e`a ^a~n, 'ia 'o"e"yae`e`o~n"y.
– 'Y`o^i ~o^id^io^i!-~n^e`ac`a"e`a "y 'o"e^u'a'i'o^ao`e~n"u.
'A^iaea, ^e`a^e "y ~o^i:'o `e~o 'o^a`e"aa`o"u!^I'a'i"y`o"u, "i^i"oa"e^i^a`a`o"u, ~Na~n`o"u ^a `a^a`o^i"a^i`i `e 'oa~o`a`o"u "a`a"ea^e^i "a`a"ea^e^i...
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