My city: the tragedy of one family

Боррони Людмила Григорьевна

– The doctor, tell honestly, my mother will recover? – what the doctor answered that he will not draw hasty conclusions, Nadezhda had extremely heavy state. He promised Roman that he will do everything possible that his mother got on feet. Also he insisted that it needs rest and he should go home.

I was solidary with the doctor and as well as he, insisted on going home. Roman long did not wish to leave, but by the evening he nevertheless agreed that it should be washed and replace a shirt.

We went to the taxi home silently, none of us uttered a uniform word. Yes it was no need. It was clear so that at present it is better to keep silent.

Chapter-9

Meeting

From Larisa's memoirs

Tell, I am right! The rights if I tell the truth, and nobody trusts me. Here and me nobody believes that I the pregnant woman from Roman.

Yesterday I was at Roman's mother on a visit. Well, I will tell, this family - that still a family, nothing to tell.

First, they did not allow to open for me a mouth, I so up to the end did not explain to Roman that the mistake cannot be: this is his child, I was only with him and with anybody. I, of course, could become pregnant from this bastard Victor. I then in hotels even in number to it did not rise, let will look for someone else for the men's satisfaction, as a last resort, nobody cancelled masturbation.

Secondly, I not dissolute, I am an ordinary little girl.

Thirdly, I would never act this way with the one with whom I fell in love. Yes, I fell in love with Roman. Fell in love from the heart, with all the heart! And it? What he, was married? What he is after all a rascal.

All right, we will return to an incident with Roman's mother. I did not want that everything ended so badly, but I am not guilty of what occurred there, in Nadezhda's apartment. I wanted to talk only to Roman, and she nothing wanted to listen. I wanted to explain that I am not a liar, but Nadezhda did not listen to me. She said to me any scurrilous things, any obscenities which any of the women respecting themselves would not will share with whom that or other person.

I am very sorry that Nadezhda had a heart attack, but I am sure that I am not guilty of it. Though I do not accuse her, each mother would stand up for the child on her place.

Anyway, the conversation did not turn out, and now Nadezhda at Burdenko's institute, and Roman cannot see me. I wrote to Vera E-Mail the letter with a request for a meeting, and received on it the answer. Here what she writes …

E-Mail Vera's letter to Larisa

Hello, Larisa. I, admit, is surprised what you wrote to me. After you treated Nadezhda, Roman and me. Did you destroy my marriage, and you have enough impudence still to write me?

In the letter you ask me about meetings with you? Well, I agree you to listen. Let's meet in three tomorrow. You come to Pushkin's monument that on Tverskaya Street.

Belief.

From Larisa's memoirs. CONTINUATION

Today exactly I came to three to Pushkin's monument where Vera's appointment with me was made. It was cloudy. The sky was covered with dense continuous clouds. Today generally I had a bad mood. In soul there was some emptiness. There was such feeling that I lost someone. Lost forever.

Here I heard someone's female voice behind the back. This voice called me by name, Larisa. I looked back and saw the woman standing behind my back. I immediately recognized her. This was Vera.

From Vera and Larisa's memoirs.

"The belief gave me a cold reception. She considered me the deadly enemy. At first she did not want to listen to me. She only expressed the personal opinion, not only concerning my act, but also on my behavior. She can to some extent was is right, but you should not accuse of everything the one who absolutely is not guilty of anything. I explained to Vera that I did not know that Roman is married. He told nothing to me about it. Only after our communication he admitted that he is married. I then wanted to suspend relations, married men are not necessary to me. But the matter is that I fell in love with it, and soon learned that I am pregnant. This is his child, I had him only".

"I listened to Larisa and did not trust her words. It seemed to me that it is impossible! Roman could not act this way. It, according to Larisa, used her, used to receive the. According to her, she is not guilty of anything. He is a rascal, the rascal which light did not see before. If Vera does not know how he wanted the child, then she would count all this for pure fiction. But it was not so. The belief had a gut feeling all women's that Larisa does not lie. She could not understand one only: how it is possible? Roman made tests, and he was infertile? But if it not so? What if did not he just want children from me? What if did not he all this time love me? And only married because of a dowry? This question haunted me.

"I saw, saw and felt that Vera doubts that her husband was honest with her. He was the same goat, as well as all of them combined - men. Nobody is capable to live life in love and harmony. All of them try to descend on the left, to have a rest from family life. Yes, do not feed men with bread if only to descend on the left. And how I could fall in love it? It seemed to me the handsome and attractive man, and I did not even notice that he is such rascal. – He already received the, – Vera said. – His mother is paralyzed, lies at Burdenko's institute. It is a pity for me for her. She so tried to make better for the son that she was helpless! – I asked it: – And what Roman? – What she answered that he is a son of the mother. It will never depart from it. I did not know Roman rather well as Vera, but for that time spent with it, I recognized him enough. I absolutely surely can tell that if he had to choose between the wife or mother, he, of course, chose the mother. Others sneeze on the ancestors, and it not such is. He is a son of the mother. I asked Vera that she thinks of current situation, and that answered that else early to solve something; to be born here the child, then we will decide what to do next. She also added that if this child really of Roman, and can define it only genetic examination, she will divorce him, and let him go wherever one wishes. He deceived her, and it we, women, never we forgive.

"Well, here also talked. I am solidary with Larisa. From a conversation with it, I understood that it is the same victim of love interlacings and circumstances, as well as I. She did not want to pull down family, it so collapsed without participation someone from the outside. As I was blind that did not notice obvious things. He never loved me. It needed only posterity, posterity - more than nothing. If he loved me, then he would not change me, and he? That for a goat really!?

From Larisa's memoirs